Friday, August 20, 2010

Happy or Sad?

Should I be happy or sad?

I probably should be happy since it's finally here... but I probably be sad since it isn't any fantastic as looking forward to? But deep in my heart, I actually know that I shouldn't expect for much more...

I know I can have the choice to be happy or sad. Be it happy or sad, I called for the day!

I know I should feel greatful that it at least it came and better than last round; although it isn't in any way, comparative to the efforts put in. Sleepless nights over the presentations and other assigned projects by the management; staying up through the nights to follow up with overseas counterparts on important emails be it for myself or for my juniors, etc...

I try to be contended, but I simply wish for more... coz I wish to provide better for my family, and to remove the strains that have been bothering us for quite some time.

I hope to get out of the burden and lived for myself, but I know I simply can't just act as what I want/like coz they are my beloved ones.

I guess, this is probably part of human nature -- always contradicting and asking for more...

But I know, one day, I will live for myself, and love myself more... And I hope this day will come really soon with some proper planning and backup plans.

4 comments:

  1. Yes love urself more. A sister told me to love myself more too. I learn to love myself more so that I am I then can have the abiliity to love others.

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  2. I learn to pamper myself from day to day. Good meal, facial , vacation, short break ( hang to book store, favourite cafe house & etc), time to be alone & etc.
    These days are beautiful :)

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  3. Its good to be selfish and think only for yrself at times cause you live for Yrself and not others... why care what people think about you when the person that you should be worried about is yrself.

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  4. I totally agree with Lay Hoon! These days are more than beautiful:-)

    Thanks for stopping by and leaving such nice notes. You're so welcome. It’s always a joy to have you visit!

    Have a wonderful week my dear!

    Big hugs, Gaby

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