Saturday, August 30, 2008

请原谅我的自私及残酷!

经过九个月的痛苦煎熬,我终于能够面对现实了…

再次YL与聚会,在她多次催问我俩何时踏入红地毯,她待作我的“姐妹”已多时;我终于说出真相,这一天不会到来。这时,她好不尴尬的说,日前与你碰面时,问及我目前的状况时,还不断地作弄你工作得日夜颠倒,连我都弃一旁。这时,我才恍然大悟,我对你如此的残酷!

为了我的恳求,你背负着说谎的罪名;虽然原先的出发点,是不想我俩之间的事影响到你和友人之间的洽谈;也默默地期着待奇迹的出现。然而,如今,我却也发现,原来我也抱有私心,不愿面对现实,一心想逃避。

想到每一回,被友人追问我俩的近况时,那种想说却说不出口的痛苦时;我可以了解你心中的痛苦!那种内心的煎熬,苦不堪言!对不起!请原谅我的自私、原谅我对你如此的残酷!

这些日子以来,我不断的回想从前,越想就越害怕!原来这段感情的结束,元凶是我!这一切的错,追根究底,错多在于我。虽然,你也得负上一部分的责任。对不起,真的对不起!是我的粗心大意,忽略了你的感受;是我总喜欢避重就轻,把话题扯开;是我总隐藏内心的想法,没有好好沟通;是我的信心不足,让你力不从心;这一切的一切都是我的错!是我,伤你太深吧!

当你刻意遗忘我的生日;连一句简单的祝福也没有,我知道,奇迹不会出现了!因为你不可能忘了我的生日与你母亲的生日仅相差一天。我意识到你刻意保持的距离;不管多不愿意,我知道,面对现实的这一天已到来…

从此,我会将对你的依恋,收藏起来,或许偶尔仍会为你流泪… 但,我不会,也不想从此将你从记忆中抹掉。感谢你,曾经爱过我;曾经为我付出的一切;曾经给过我的欢乐时光;曾经陪我共度欢喜悲伤。这一段回忆,因为有你而精彩!我真心祝福你,幸福快乐!

这一刻,我流着愧疚的眼泪,恳求得到你的原谅!请原谅我的自私及残酷!我们还是朋友吧?

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

洋葱

在找到《爱情就像一颗洋葱头》的文字时,我就在想,是否有人会以洋葱比喻为爱情并谱成曲。很巧的,隔天,我就从收音机里听到这首曲 —— 杨宗纬的洋葱。


洋葱
作词/作曲:阿信(五月天)
演绎:杨宗纬

如果你眼神能够为我 片刻的降临
如果你能听到 心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己 像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多开心
最角落里的我 笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我 永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱 永远是配角戏
多希望能与你 有一秒 专属的剧情

爱情就像一颗洋葱头…

日前,在收拾房间时找到一张若干年前,不知从哪儿抄来的一段文字。当年,之所以抄下来是因为有这样的习惯,将一些美丽的文字/段落记载下来,日后或许能成为写作的灵感泉源。今日读了这篇文字,却格外感同身受,在此与大家分享:

有人说爱情就像一颗洋葱头。
每个人都想知道他的中心是什么,
大家就会把它一片一片的分开。
可是到最后什么也没有,
有的就只是眼泪…

对爱情一探究竟,像拨开洋葱, 一层一层的剥开, 爱情或许从此失去神秘感…
爱的感觉也会逐渐消失,因此才会剩下泪水…
从古至今,爱无从解释, 或许就是这份神秘感, 保持着爱的新鲜度,才能让爱维持下去。
在爱的世界里头,适度的充当傻子,或许才能让爱维持更久吧!
试想想,傻一下又何妨?傻人有傻福!
你愿意充当傻子吗?

Monday, August 25, 2008

男人与泪…

从来,男人必须扮演着强者,因此,大家都认定流泪的男人一定是弱者;我却不敢苟同!眼泪只是一种抒发自己情感的管道。我认为诚实面对自己的情感的男人,最勇敢!伤心落泪,感动流泪,这只不过是人之常情罢了;有什么好令人感觉窝囊的?

有人说,女人碰到男人落泪,便会招架不住;我确实有同感!虽然男性朋友有限,但我却目睹了好几位男人在我眼前落泪。落泪的男人,显得格外感性,令人心疼。又或许是男人的眼泪不易见,显得格外珍贵,因此令人难以招架!

众云说,“男人不该让女人流泪”,而事实上,女人极不愿见到自己喜爱的男人为她流泪,除非那是——幸福的泪光。

眼泪与我…

眼泪是我抒发情感的最佳管道,
在我疲惫不堪,无力承受压力时;
我会落泪…
狗急跳墙;气极逼疯时;
我亦会气得落泪…
见友人找到真爱,觅得幸福;
我亦会喜极而泣…
忆起宜师宜友的故人;
我也不禁流泪…
一个剧幕,一首歌,甚至一则广告;
亦能令我感动的流泪…
这,或许是我泪腺过于发达的关系吧!
有时,很痛恨这样的自己,
这么容易落泪的自己!
在别人面前显得格外软弱…
甚至引人猜疑我使用泪弹攻势,
博取同情;让对方难受!
泪腺过于发达,不是我的错!
我亦从来无意,以泪博取同情。
我无法控制我的眼泪,
但,这并不代表着我很软弱;
虽然,我也不是一个格外坚强的人。
不要怀疑我流泪的目的,
伤心就会难过流泪,
这,就是我!
我只是个普通人…
今夜,痛彻心扉的歌曲及眼泪伴我入睡…

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Staying Positive...

Came across this from Jenn's Blog:

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart.
Try to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language.
Do not now look for the answers.
They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them.
It is a question of experiencing everything.
At present you need to live the question
.
Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it,
find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke ~

This is something that I've been struggling with for the past 9 months, I hope to be able to stay more positive to conquer all these issues...

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Recent Works...

Altered Plastic Container
Did this in Laines Papeterie during the National Day Special promotion Make & Take Sesssion. It is so simple just by using Pattern Paper (PP), Ribbons & Rub Ons and yet it turns out to be so nice... Thanks for the Free Make & Take session, I've much fun with the aleration.


Birthday Cards
i) This is the 1st time I use the newly bought Martha Stewart Doily Lace Edge punch for my card creation. This card is rather imperfect with some double image due to poor stamping... But this is what we called handmade stuff, the imperfections will tell the truth. Sometimes, the more you wanna make the best out of it, the worse it become, I learn to accept it over time...


ii) I've wanted to add on more stuff on the card, but decided to do without with... the most important message is all within the card. Sometimes, less is more... ("Totally Special" Circle Stamp is from Michelle's AL stamps during the stamping session)



ATCs
Tomorrow with be the BBQ with the groovie gals from Groovie Java Scraps Cafe. I'm hosting an ATC swap for the BBQ session, with the sponsorship from Regina of Papier House of mini ATC Kits made up of BlueEye Dezines PP, cardstocks & embellishments. Each pax will make 2 ATCS, theme is love/friendship. These are my take... ("Love" stamped image is from a stamped image swap with Scrappin Kids whike the butterflies images are from Felicia's stamps collection during the last stamping session)




Sunday, August 17, 2008

Marvelous cream - New Kid in town!,

Ice Cream Lovers, do check out Marvelous Cream at Raffles Link! I passed by the outlet the other day, it is fully packed with female customers. Haha, dessert is always a gal's best friend. Just looking the range of ice-creams & parfait being offered makes you drool. You are simply spoilt for choices! Too Bad, they only have take away & no dine in, I would love to seat down with my few girlfriends to enjoy these ice-cream / parfait. Have anyone of you tried it out? Do share your review yah!


Above photos are from Marvelous Cream

Where: 1 Raffles Link, B1-04, CityLink Mall, Tel: 6238-1683
Open: 11am to 10pm
Price: $5.90 for a parfait and from $4.90 for a small cup of cold stone ice cream
What: Pick from 28 recommended combinations of cold stone ice cream, including strawberry sweet shortcake, Belgium banana chocolate and macaron rouge framboise. There are also seven different parfait selections such as mont blanc and tiramisu.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

幸福的理由



 演绎:张栋梁
作詞:張國祥 作曲:柯貴民
編曲:Shah Tahir

好想听你说心里有个我
不说你会懂内心的真正激动
只有你和我简单一个动作
我确定付出的爱不会错
喧哗的街道牵着你的手
手心的温柔是心动的墙垛
快乐在加油幸福拼命闪动
这份花开结果爱在心中
手牵手幸福的理由
相约到永久
在无边星空
当你的水手
默默为你守侯
手牵手幸福的理由
你在我左右
是唯一的感动
捍卫每一分钟
你是我所有
到最后
你是幸福的理由

与天使帮聚会后,在回家的道路上,德士里的收音机传来了这首歌,这首让我再度悸动的歌…
什么是你幸福的理由?
幸福的密码又如何解读?

幸福,是握着你那宽厚的手掌
像两颗炽热的心,紧紧相拥。
幸福,是能够一辈子这样握着你的手,
手牵着手,白头到老。

总是很羡慕那些老夫老妻,能手牵着手,携手白头;这,就是我向往的幸福。我的幸福何时会降临?我不知否,一切随缘吧!

想起和友人的一段谈话,深深地体会到:其实,再坚强的人,也有她柔弱的一面;再独立的人,也有想依靠他人的时候。表面复杂,内心其实很简单,只求找到相爱的人,一辈子牵着他的手,走完人生的道路…

你,找到了你幸福的理由吗?

Friday, August 8, 2008

In search of...

It's been quite some time since I last catch up with Cyn & Dor. Together with MF, we met up at Orchard. Went to Su Korean Cuisine for dinner and we shopped around Far East Plaza after dinner. After some time, we decided that it's time to rest our tired feets.

We decided to settle at my favourite drinking outlet - Coffee Beans at Wheellock. The blur young cashier gal actually undercharged my credit card by S$39.60. I wanted to top up my coffee bean card by $40, but she charged me $0.40 instead!!! I wouldn't deny the evil in me try to persuade me to keep mum about this, but the little angel tell me the poor gal may need to fork out the $$$ to top up the differences. I honestly feedback and she was damn shocked to realised her big mistake. It took me a while to get this resolved and finally managed to settle down for my black forest.

And what a small world, Shirely happened to be around with her kids and times really flies, her kids have all grown so much taller and I believe they almost can't recognised me after so many years.

While we are chatting happily, just somehow, i have a premonition, I search my sling bag, ransacking every corner of it, and to my fear, my Renoma coin cum key pouch is lost! This is meant to be a happy gathering when we are supposed to have a good time over the coffee / mocha. However, we ended the drinking session hastily and went back to Far East Plaza in search of my pouch. The pouch did not consist of much money, but what matters to me is the pouch is a present from my beloved friends cum ex-colleague from Panasonic. And the fact that my house key & mail box are gone, these are rather cumbersome.

I left my contact my with the secuirty, but frankly speaking, I guess chances are slim. On the other hand, I'm trying very hard to persuade myself in practicing the LAW of ATTRACTION. OK, I need to convince myself the good will attract the good... Oh God, pls let me get back my pouch, it doesn't matter if the $$$ were gone, what matters to me is the pouch & keys.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Scrappin Kids Care Frame Charity Drive

In response to Scrappin Kids Care's call to the Frame Charity Drive, I do my little bit to help...

I have donated 3 semi-decorated frames bought from Ikea. Well, these are brand new spare frames at home. If not for my tight schedule, I would like to go to to Ikea to buy more frames & pledge to donate more...


I've painted the frames with Making Memories Acrylic Paint with red, blue & green respectively. Embellished the red frame with Creative Imaginations Swirl Chipboards coated with neon pink microbeads, the blue frame with EK Success Circle Epoxy Stickers, and last but not least, the green frame with Aiutumn Leaves Rub Ons.

I've also donated a pack of chipboard alphas which I've used a few alphas for 1 card & 1 LO. In addition, I also donated some other embellishments like the faux pearls, crystal blings, puffy flowers & hearts, & buttons for the kids to continue their decorations on the frames. I know that these are not substantial donations compared to others. But I'm just doing my bit of share to spread love. And who cares how you think about me, donating a pack of half used alpha chipboard? Don't you know the meaning of it's the thoughts that counts? And what most important is, I've put my thoughts into action! No matter how busy I am, I'll ensure I've some time for some charity drive / volunteering work. If you have not known the joy of sharing & spreading love, do action on it and you'll never regret!



Sunday, August 3, 2008

Stamping Fun

We had much fun in the stamping session at Michelle's house on 2/Aug... We each bring our stamp collections for the stamping session. Each and everyone have great collections that we wowed at, especially Felicia's collection, which make everyone of us drooled...

Above photo features Ciska, Feli, Me, Michelle, Mei Fong (Madeline) & Irene. (Photo by Courtesy of Celeste, Michelle's daughter)

And Look how much fun we have crowding around the table, each at one station stamping images. Even Michelle's daughter, Celeste, is having so much fun with the stamping!

Above photo features Me, Ciska, Feli, Celeste & Irene. (Photo by courtesy of Michelle)


This is what I've gotten from my 1.5hrs of stamping session, mind you, I've not even touched 1/10 of the stamps available!

After the stamping session, I'm very motivated to get my stamps organised with the pocket folders that I've bought just before the stamping session! Getting my stamps organised in these pocket folders will ease my next stamping session!


You may have wonder if these pre-stamped images will be put into good use or will just be kept in my folder to collect dust. Do not doubt the purpose of the stamping session, I've put some of these stamped images into good use almost immediately for my ATC making as below. Are you able to spot these imagines from the stamp sheets displayed above?

Friday, August 1, 2008

一切完美?

剧中有一些精彩的经典对白/旁述;想与大家分享:

世界上没有丑人,只有穷人。

一直以来,只听说:世界上没有丑人,只有懒人。可是听了这段对白却觉得,这句话,虽然显得很肤浅,却一点也不为过。如果没有钱,又如何将自己扮的美美的?况且,无可否认,人的第一印象十分重要,外在美的确有一定的分量。当然,我从不认为外在美是全部;因为,我始终相信最美丽的人,他的魅力源自那颗善良的心、最真诚的心… 你说呢?

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从前有一个很胖的灰姑娘,她一直很想自己可以像灰姑娘遇到她的白马王子;可以有她的玻璃鞋。她一直等待,终于让她等到了她生命里的白马王子白马王子,也像她所期望的给了她美丽的玻璃鞋。她也很开心,想穿上那美丽的玻璃鞋,可是无论她怎么努力,还是挤不进去;她决定放弃了因为她知道,她永远都不会飞上枝头变凤凰。她不会是公主,也不会是王子的灰姑娘;现在不是,以后也不会是…

听了这段旁述,我落下了眼泪。我可以明白女主角的心情。完美的爱情结局难以在现实生活中找到;妙想自己能像童话世界里的主角一样得到永恒的幸福;奈何梦醒时分,才知晓,"they lived happily ever after" 只发生在童话世界里头。一头栽进去;到头来,只会伤痕累累…

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一秒钟遇到一个人,一分钟认识一个人,一小时喜欢上一个人,一天时间爱上一个人,但是却需要用一辈子的去忘记一个人。

要认识一个人,需要勇气;要遗忘一个人需要更大的勇气。因为你不知道是否真的能够从此将他从你的记忆抹去。若是我;我将会选择不要刻意将一个人遗忘;不管他带给我的回忆是美好的,又或痛苦的。好的?坏的?都是我人生的一部分;能够勇敢面对;才能展望未来!

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只要包容不完美,一切便会变得完美!

人非圣贤;孰能无过?更莫说完美!或许我们总对对方设定了一定的指标;祈求对方达到你的要求。如果,我们能够阿Q一点,对对方要求少一些,包容他的缺陷而放大他的优点;这样,或许,真的会将一切变得完美!